As you can see, it's been pretty hectic. And God has been teaching me SO MUCH through all of it.
The next few days/weeks/how ever long it takes me to post this stuff, I will be talking about the many things God has been teaching me.
Today, I'm going to talk about God turning rocks into diamonds. Yes, very metaphorical, I know.
In the past month or two, Levi has been in the hospital for two surgeries. Following that, both he and Mom got sick. We had just recovered from that when now Mom has the flu. What a sicky house we are!
When I get stressed out and tired, I snap at people. That's what I do. That's how I show that I am NOT well in any way. Is it the best way? No. So I'm going to have to learn to control that at some point.
Yesterday, I was being particularly snappy because we weren't able to go out to eat with our friends because Mom was sick. When my dad asked me what was wrong, I said, "I'm tired of people being sick." And he replied, "Well, you're going to have to deal with sick people every day of your life with what you want to do." And as much as I hate to admit it, he was right.
For those who don't know, I want to be a missionary to Africa when I graduate high school. I don't know how long I will stay there, as long as God wants me to. I used to want to be a famous film score composer, but now I don't know if that's where God is calling me. Yes, I enjoy writing music. But what I LOVE, is helping people. Is taking care of little kids. Is hugging a baby close to me when it's crying and telling him it's all gonna be okay. That's what I LOVE doing.
In Africa, I would have to deal with AIDS, malaria, worms, all sorts of stuff. I would have to deal with death.
In that moment, I realized that God was preparing me. He was preparing me to be able to deal with all that sickness, and still be able to hold to my faith. God is slowly, but surely, molding me into a diamond that will shine for Him. He makes us who we are through the things that are difficult for us.
Last year, I would not have been able to deal with sickness and surgeries in the same month.
Two years ago, I would not have been able to handle Levi's three weeks at the hospital following open-heart surgery.
God is preparing me. He's preparing you too. You just have to learn to see it.