Thursday, March 17, 2011


The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in Spirit.
                     - Psalm 34:18

When we got our court date for Evan, I was ecstatic. Surely this meant we would bring her home. The agencies and caseworkers were 90% sure that the judge would let special needs children come home.

A child with special needs has never been adopted out of Evan's region. We would be the second family. The Davis family was first. Their court date took place at about 2:00 a.m. last night our time. After five grueling hours of court, which everyone present thought had gone well, the judge rejected their adoption.

Everyone was shocked. The judge gave no other reason than that she would allow them to adopt a typical child, but she didn't see how being in their home would be better for them or for the little boy they were trying to adopt.

Their options are limited now.

This does not bode well for our adoption at all. I just keep repeating over and over, "I don't understand."

I thought, surely, surely after all this waiting, God would finally give us peace in this. No. I just don't understand. Why did we have to get the region that wouldn't issue court dates? Why did we have to get the region where special needs adoptions were rejected?

I don't understand. And I feel brokenhearted. I am crushed in spirit.

Please lift up the Davis family in prayer - they need it desperately. And, while I despise that judge with every fiber of my being, lift her up in prayer too. Maybe God will change her heart. But we need prayer now. More than ever before we need prayer.


  1. Tori--I just thought this whole chapter was an appropriate response...

    Isaiah 61
    The Year of the LORD’s Favor
    1 The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
    because the LORD has anointed me
    to proclaim good news to the poor.
    He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
    to proclaim freedom for the captives
    and release from darkness for the prisoners,[a]
    2 to proclaim the year of the LORD’s favor
    and the day of vengeance of our God,
    to comfort all who mourn,
    3 and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
    to bestow on them a crown of beauty
    instead of ashes,
    the oil of joy
    instead of mourning,
    and a garment of praise
    instead of a spirit of despair.
    They will be called oaks of righteousness,
    a planting of the LORD
    for the display of his splendor.
    4 They will rebuild the ancient ruins
    and restore the places long devastated;
    they will renew the ruined cities
    that have been devastated for generations.
    5 Strangers will shepherd your flocks;
    foreigners will work your fields and vineyards.
    6 And you will be called priests of the LORD,
    you will be named ministers of our God.
    You will feed on the wealth of nations,
    and in their riches you will boast.

    7 Instead of your shame
    you will receive a double portion,
    and instead of disgrace
    you will rejoice in your inheritance.
    And so you will inherit a double portion in your land,
    and everlasting joy will be yours.

    8 “For I, the LORD, love justice;
    I hate robbery and wrongdoing.
    In my faithfulness I will reward my people
    and make an everlasting covenant with them.
    9 Their descendants will be known among the nations
    and their offspring among the peoples.
    All who see them will acknowledge
    that they are a people the LORD has blessed.”

    10 I delight greatly in the LORD;
    my soul rejoices in my God.
    For he has clothed me with garments of salvation
    and arrayed me in a robe of his righteousness,
    as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest,
    and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
    11 For as the soil makes the sprout come up
    and a garden causes seeds to grow,
    so the Sovereign LORD will make righteousness
    and praise spring up before all nations.

    Keep looking up! He hears our prayers.

    Love, PopPop

  2. Oh Tori! I'm praying for your family and your sweet sister!

  3. I love what you are doing and plan to follow your blog as much as possible.

    My heart is so sad for the rejection heaped on the rejected right now. What plan does God have in this all- He rescues, but how does that work right now in this hour, in this situation?

    I will certainly join you in pleading this case before the Throne so that the judge is moved and that a heavenly justice comes swiftly.

    I am anonymous because I have adopted children that need to be kept low profile, not because I can;t back up my message! Much love